dolorous interludes.

you said that you wouldnt quite believe that i was in a relationship until i tell it to you myself. i dont know whats holding me back. i suppose itd be awkward too. i feel as if you merely live in my dreams, my inner world, somewhere untangible, yet i see you so clearly, so much so that the feeling still burns in me. i have to remind myself that you're not quite part of my life, anymore at least. ive got a commitment to fulfill, yet i know i'll never let go till i know you've moved on completely. i wonder if you'll read all of these someday. i guess this blog sorta belongs to you. yeah, whenever i write here, feels as if im writing to you. telling you things i would never bring myself to tell you, not now at least. i heard of your aborted relationship with this girl from your class recently, from a mutual friend of ours, yes. thinking about you nearly moving on so completely strikes a chord in me. a silent ache. hm. christmas day was not nearly as cheery for me. i spent it mostly with my family and relatives. i did feel very much family warmth then, but christmas day also reminded me very much of last christmas. or rather, the last two christmases. i smile as i recollect. poignant memories.

posted by voyeur @ 12/28/2002 07:27:00 PM