dolorous interludes.

How could i not have realised
that your love rescued me

There was an amazing calm when she curled her arms around my shoulders and prayed for me. Its been about eight months since i last went to church with an open mind, or rather, since i last visited church because i really wanted to. George Eliot says that religion is a creation of mankind; we all need something more than what life can adorn us with, and different people hold onto different things to fill that gap- the gap between our world, and the other world (of which people create this other world to explain coincidences in life). So to fill this gap, we choose one of the two things- Chance/Fate, or God. I choose God today because i see that Chance gives me nothing to believe in. It is a dark empty hole, and one finds neither strength, solace, nor love through it.

Today, i choose God. But slow and steady this choice will be; i shall first read the book she kindly lent me, and maybe, just maybe, i will begin to discover God's love once more.

posted by voyeur @ 9/26/2004 01:55:00 PM