dolorous interludes.

i'm trying to keep my head up, but its difficult when law school is discouraging. i feel incapable and inadequate, i feel small and stupid. People say things but you know its merely cursory. i think i've met enough people to distinguish between the genuine and otherwise. Was talking to a close friend last night(and thank you for calling dear, it was really nice catching up- the girl power thing in you never ceases to amaze me :)), and she's right about me keeping my guard up. This isn't college anymore, i now know what it means to kill for success. If i want to win, to outlive, to outdo, i have to play it right, and tough. but i dont want to win this way; im not like that, but i dont want to lose it all either. maybe law school isn't for me after all. maybe i was wrong in thinking that i could be relatively good at it. i'm just a silly girl after all, who am i kidding?

posted by voyeur @ 12/11/2004 03:59:00 AM