Girlfriends.
These are the people who have seen me through almost everything- my ups, my downs, my big tee shirt days, my younger days when i still had my braces and short hair ;) and of course, the uh, better days. haha.
They're there when you need a shoulder to cry on, to laugh with- about anything and nothing at all, to men-bitch with(or anything worth bitching about actually ;) ). They are the people you have fruitful shopping trips with, stand around for hours just deciding on where to eat while being all silly and girly about being terribly indecisive, have long phone conversations about the same people and often the same topics too but never getting tired. These are the people who understand you when you give them 'the eye' at a mention of an ex boyfriend's name, a place you've had bad experiences at, or even a play that reflects your thoughts and lives at present. They are the ones who give you strength when you feel all fucked- and they say nice things like- you deserve better, screw him, you're better than that; they give you things you absolutely love because they know what you're like and what you like; you swim together, go for karaoke sessions together, take tennis lessons with(oh i cant hardly wait dear! :)), and who could forget- toilet visits together haha.
These people- words never falling short- from God, to fashion, to Love, food, (oh you get the idea); and when words
do fall short, you sit in comfortable silence while enjoying their company thoroughly anyway. :) These are the people closest to my heart- i couldn't and wouldnt be able to do without them. I love you i love you i love you. all.
With all my heart, dearests.
LATE: eunice, tania, alexia, lorraine. :) it was so wonderful meeting up- with all of us finally present. looking forward to the next birthday celebration- with lorraine treating of course. haha. ;)
And the birthday girl! :)
being silly at swensens. smiles.
we love food! :)
so much more inside.
Where are you going?
i heard you say i'm going nowhere,
you're in my way
you're just like an
iron ball and chain that's wrapped around tightly,
around my brain
and you start squeezing.
But i will never lose my mind,
'cos i've got so much more inside
i just try to walk away its material.
crazy, more likely. its what i said.
you're going nowhere
around my head
this distance between us is killing me.
But keeping it real,
i'd rather be, and
i will never lose my mind,
'cos i've got so much more inside
i just try to walk away its material.
There comes this point in your life where you wake up and you're just so tired-
of everything-
its time to close a few chapters, and
move ahead.
Revelry does nothing for me.
No more head in the clouds,
no more doe eyed foolery.
Here is gone,
and for good.
I want to be fucking devoid of emotion.
I do not wish to, ever, need anybody.
How could she give voice to an elusive malaise?
She didn't have the words, the opportunity, the courage.
She was not happy, had never been so. Where did it come from, this feeling of deprivation, this instantaneous decay of things in which she put her trust? But, if there were somewhere a strong and beautiful creature, a valiant nature full of passion and delicacy in equal measure, the heart of a poet in the figure of an angel, a lyre with strings of steel, sounding to the skies elegaic epithalamia, why should she not, fortuitously, find such a one? What an impossibility! Nothing, anyway, was worth that great a quest; it was all lies! Every smile concealed the yawn of boredom, every joy a malediction, every satisfaction brought its nausea, and even the most perfect kisses leave upon the lips a fantastical craving for the supreme pleasure.
Playground Love.
Eternal insatiable desires- only you could inspire; impossible yearnings- only you could fulfill. I'll be waiting when you're gone.
I'm a high school lover, and you're my favorite flavor.
Love is all, all my soul.
You're my playground love.
Yet my hands are shaking.
I feel my body leaning.
Time's no matter, I'm on fire
On the playground love.
You're the piece of gold,
That flushes all my soul.
Extra time, on the ground.
You're my playground love
Anytime, anywhere,
You're my playground love.
